This past year has been one of immense personal growth for me. I started 2016 as a Weight Watchers leader intent on “getting skinny again” once and for all by beating my binge eating addiction.
I ended the year as a certified health coach, having regained my sense of self-worth, loving the body I’m in, vowing never to diet again and helping other women to do the same. (Oh, and I finally did beat that binge eating addiction once I started actually feeding myself again and nourishing my body from the inside out.)
I used to think that I was setting a good example to my daughter by being “healthy”(ie. skinny) and making exercise a central part of my life (ie. obsession). Now I’ve realized that if I truly want to be a good example to my daughter, I need to teach her that we are more than our clothing size, and that healthy comes in many shapes and sizes. I want to nourish my body with good, wholesome food, but I also want to listen to my urges and eat ice cream whenever the hell I feel like it without feeling the kind of guilt and shame that ultimately leads to binge eating.
True food freedom means allowing all foods (not just the healthy stuff), listening to what makes me feel good and what doesn’t (it’s amazing how much I don’t crave my old “go to” binge food anymore), and trusting that my body wants what’s best for me. That’s a scary leap of faith when you’ve been taught your whole life to control your eating, control your body size, fear fat and take up as little space as possible.
This year’s transformation certainly didn’t happen overnight, and I credit many resources in helping me on this path to food freedom and self-acceptance. So, I thought I’d gather them here as a syllabus for others, and then I can update it as my own journey progresses.
Food Psych (Christy Harrison)
Fearless Rebelle Radio (Summer Innanen)
Love, Food (Julie Duffy Dillon)
Life. Unrestricted. (Meret Boxler)
Dietitians Unplugged (Aaron Flores & Glenys Oyston)
The Fuck It Diet Radio (Caroline Dooner)
The Recovery Warrior (Jessica Raymond)
Mind Body Musings (Maddy Moon)
Quit Binge Eating (Alen Standish)